The Exile
Long, I wandered, exiled from my Lord's table.
Pride-stricken, heart-locked, I stood alone.
Thought-wise, but not, I sang false truths.
Eyes raised, star-drunk, I pondered the depths,
but found only me.
The soul-deep opened, devouring me whole,
and I was lost in a cave of twisting shadows,
a self-made prison for my self-made self.
I craved reunion but, heart-sealed,
I fell, again and again, into soul-bleak depths.
In the darkness of my soul, I found a lotus bud,
a glimmer of light in the shadows.
I tilled the darkness into rich earth,
watered by my soul-stricken tears.
A one-flower garden, treasured above all else.
My soul-hungry eyes reached across the abyss,
looking for anything but myself,
and found it studded with gleaming jewels.
I laughed at my folly, seeing the truth
of my soul in the constellation.
Soul-seared and heart-weary,
I found peace in the shade,
sheltered under loving wings.
Sweet, healing breath restored me,
whispered from beyond.
Eyes restored, I cried, "I see you!".
Heart-drenched, my soul filled
with the healing waters of life.
Crowning the waters, rooted in wet muck,
the white lotus bloomed in light.
The Lord's chorus sang with joy.
I was shown the end when love prevails, and
flowers of every hue fill the garden
with their soul-sweet scent:
my white lotus among them.
Lovingly nudged, I followed the golden thread,
to my heart-home at the water's mouth.
There, washed in the sacred waters,
the light of the world dyed my soul in every hue.
Home, at last, an exile no more.